What Are you Trying to Prove?

When it comes to procrastination, fear seems to be one of the critical feelings behind it. Fear can leave us feeling powerless and paralyzed.
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As an adult, one of the dark clouds that can trigger me is the feeling of not being smart enough. As a child, I stuttered. I remember having so many thoughts but not being able to get them all out correctly. In grade school, I was separated from my class and put on a bus during English class. I remember feeling so embarrassed. I felt like something was wrong with me.
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One particular day that still haunts me was the day my mom came to my high school for parent-teacher conferences. I remember my Biology teacher sitting my mom down and telling her that I was a loser and that I wouldn't amount to anything if I continued down this same path.
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I had a lot of influential people in my life who drilled into my head that I would become nothing. My dreams were just that...dreams, and I didn't have what it took to be successful.
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For a very long time, the belief that I was a loser, and not good enough, not smart enough held me back from doing so many things. It's a limited belief, and it took time for me to realize that I can create my own story. This was a story I couldn't bear to live with anymore. So I created a new one. Just like that!
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Whatever it is that is holding you back; it's time to take a chance. It's never too late to reinvent yourself.
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The greatest revenge in life is massive success. Success to me is happiness with one's self.
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P.S. I still miss Harvey more than ever. Some wounds just don’t heal, and that’s okay.